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A letter to my love

Thank you for writing back, for understanding we do not need to run to each other in this moment, our love cannot be surpassed, is infinite and full, does not need our reaffirmation. I don't try to push you away at all my love, will never push you aside, I feel the same reservations in declaring my love, so easily words fail, so deeply I feel your love within me, know no moment in our lives are we separate, know no distance separates our beings, know it takes my greatest show of discipline to not run towards you, to not fall into projections, into the constructs we so easily desire, to not lust for your body, to not desire your flesh, to keep my love as pure as humanly capable. We will grace each other's presence soon, my love, will know the blisses to be known in these bodies soon enough. what roles could we embody without falling into these projections?, what desires of the body distract the mind from what already is?, what displays to this consciousness could ever grow this love beyond the purity we already embody? I wish to be there for you as honestly and purely as can be, to love you as purely as any being, to show my unconditional support and love for anything your heart desires, for any wrong you see to right, for any action you must take. It takes my greatest calm and all my will to not yell out our love to the world, to not cross the ocean to find you, to not run by your side, but my great fear is to not live up to my words, to not embody the purity I wish to bestow on you. You words bring me the deepest calm, the highest feeling of love, the most profound beauty known in this body, I wander not alone but full, fulfilled, beaming love outward and only feeling love around me, thank you for the greatest gift to be known, to know the infinite love of a pure soul, to know the struggles of a kindred spirit wanting to be free, to know someone who reads my words and accepts them with an open heart, to feel as strongly such a mirror of myself, to know we are one being, one consciousness, that our meeting was not a moment in the past, not a moment that once was, but an infinite moment of Truth, of awakening, a timeless moment of uniting what always was, opening a window to the soul within. If in moments since I have felt lone, felt solitary, your love has brought me back to my center, been a constant reminder of the truth, been my light through the darkest witnessed moments. life is beautiful and profound, the whole of the universe found within each soul, each being, each consciousness on this Earth. the totality of experience to be had in these bodies is not something we may ever consciously know, may be as infinite as time and space itself, may all just be our own illusion, but to accept this diversity of life, of experience, of consciousness, is to be liberated, is to know the truth within, is the greatest gift we can awaken within ourselves, however we choose to practice our philosophy, to love our lives, to label ourselves, our friends, our relationships, is all equal if done in love, in purity, in open acceptance of what we witness. Religion and philosophy has been for myself a fascination, an obsession, a desire to understand the diversity and depth of beliefs, of our views in the world, of the various practices and philosophical viewpoints that shape our actions, so much appears to separate them, yet the deeper we look, the further inward we turn, the more they appears the same, the more the commen ground is found within, found between, the less these separations appear. Each of our lives is a path, our paths have crossed in a permanent way, our souls, the bonds between are strong within these vessels, these souls, these bodies, I know no fear reading your words, accept and embrace your love as fully as I am capable, would run to your side if you ever are in need, but we are both human, we are both emotional beings, we both have passions, desires, dreams, needs, as any other human, I do not dismiss or reject your humanity or any others, do not reject the human forces that pull together, do not wish to label or judge or characterize our relationship, but this is just to acknowledge we still can fault, we still may stray from the truth, we are both equally aware our balance of love is a careful test of will and self, of our actions and our words, of our thoughts and how we chose to view, how we chose to interpret the world. So easily we can fall in deeply physical and emotional bonds, so easily could we become distracted from what actions we must take, so hard could it become if we let our momentary desires overcome our rational minds, overcome our spiritual paths. I do not say these words to reject any physical bonds, this is not to say we can never have sex, not that we cannot commune in the physical realms, not to say we cannot embrace each other again or grace each other's lips in such exstacy as will be lived, but through all these we must always know our higher selves, through any forms of connection we may have must stay in this pure knowledge, must continue to stay in the light however we shall bond, must always maintain our balance, continue to watch and support each other though any fall from grace, to continue improving and deepening our understanding of ourselves and each other, of every being, must stay in the light of acceptance regardless. I could pack all my bags and run to you if you so choose, but would this decision be only to fulfill these physical desires? Can we not be there to support each other at any distance, to feel and know this love from afar as purely and fully as I know in this moment. Your message today reaffirms there is no need for us to fall into these desires at this moment, my love for you is as full and pure as for any being, is felt as if you were in my arms, as the last moment our bodies embraced and the gracious beauty of the moment of our first kiss, to feel these strong feelings despite our distance is difficult I'm sure for us both, the expectation created that we need to be in each other's physical presence to prove anything is just that, our conditioning to desire and need the physical to fully know each other's love is one major obstacle faced and pain of any long distance relationship, whether friend or loved one or family, these are simply different ways of displaying our love, the physical is of course empty without the emotional, the rational without the emotional equally empty of deeper bond, to know at any moment at any distance our love is equal, as full, as profound and deep, that our distance phsyically dismisses our distance virtually, through our writing, through our communication, is as instantaneous, as immediate as if we were by each other's side, that any moment if you need support, need an ear, want to talk, I am here. Our love is all full as you so desire, as full as we can love ourselves we can love each other. Even if romantic love is a desire, just know for each moment spent apart, the gracious moment our eyes will cast into each other's souls again will bring the deepest and most profound bliss to be known in these phsyically manifestations we wander in, to know that moment is not distant in the future but as close as any moment, for the strength of trust, of pure devotion to love, to the light within, to the knowledge we are kindred beings that accept each other and all purely as they are, this moment shall be not my desire but brings comfort in it's inevitability, this moment shall be one of the purest bliss of love for all beings known in the crystal of the moment, the timeless and infinite moment of the present.