Poetical Ravings

Infinite ecstatic bliss quells the racing mind No others soul has struck me in peace as what you find For reasons never explained, by forces yet unknown What draws us deeper inward? What else is to be shown?

Each leafs gentle descent into yellow over time Signifies the seasons, marks seasons passing to sublime What keeps this earth on turning? what is left for us to know? only truth draws me onward, guided by your soul I go

Dark clouds looming over but light shining through No darkness can shade from a love shining as bright as you All things appear so clearly, my path has clearly formed These breezes might seem chilly, but your love keeps me warm

Why do I shake so violently but behind I'm hid away? Outward I might seem calm but inside my head I'll stay Nervous wrecking tension, comes to haunt from distant past. Why can't I just get over things I can't expect to last?

You are pure light and infinite love, let it shine through every being you appear to in this earthly manifestation, for your light shines pure and true for the liberation of all beings. As the Buddha can observe without attachment, so can this body know at least freedom from the cycles presented to us. You're well on the path of truth, to have come so far when so many still suffer is the greatest honor and freedom offered to us, to be accepted with only gratitude for our position in the universe, not to be proud to be fortunate but to only help others on the path, for if only for a moment to know the truth uniting this world as one, that there never was anything but, that liberation is the greatest gift to be shared as purely with others as any action taken.

My love knows no boundaries, my love knows no name If you knew the love I feel, you would feel just the same Silent souls share something's spoken but never seen My name is rendered useless, such words are so obscene

I'm glowing, flying, radiating warmth throughout my soul overwhelming enveloping ecstasy brings deepest calm to guide my goal exuding pure awareness, absorbing only love heavens highest plateaus are found inside, not above

Know nothing, my dearest love, can hurt whats known true I could never take my love away no matter what you might do unconditionally and infinite, knowing no boundaries the purest love cant be removed, what I give to thee

How do I know my love is true? My only desires to know the soul of you Have no care what must be to act true Sweet caring love is known fresh as each mornings dew Escape not this world for the bless of you Your souls presence graces all you do Each heart beat fills all holes paved through Forgot not what your great beauty exudes Ask the world not why? but whats known? to whom?

From moments met in contact, eyes speak more then words I hear your soul call out to me, awoke my sleep when heard What darkness clouds the present?, why history clouds the mind? What connections can be made with souls kindred over time? Is there anybody out there that will not ever die? All moments might be fleeting, makes life's each bliss divine

Fantasies sweet escapes from a dreary unreal world Only such dreams can relieve my pains, yet im unable to meet a girl Unknown to the mind and yet so close to my body I travel the world, still yet to find just one as sweet as thee

Romantic dreams drift onward as I stumble through this world Rhyme or reason can't explain what's thrown away when hurled I can't seem to get across all the things that fill my mind Peace and inner quiescence calms mind for moment's find

Fantasies sweet escapes from a dreary unreal world Only such dreams can relieve my pains, yet im unable to meet a girl Unknown to the mind and yet so close to my body I travel the world, still yet to find just one as sweet as thee

Desire to die so intensely I dream to destroy my self What can't be understood just undermines my mental health Why does love corrupt the peace I've found in mind Please leave me be alone, our hearts will never bind.

Painful moments memories of loves forgotten hope What destroys my careful balance?, is it 'cause I smoke dope? Why does this world take away what gives for a brief of time Is she out there seeking one who only seeks none to find

Tortures are my one relief, the only feeling left If pain can bring such relief then rejoice my looming death Why do I get the urge to destroy my self so quick My body might be healthy but I know my mind is sick

Death will come as release  from the tortures of this world I wander lone for no one, save my all for the right girl I know my ideas are fantasy known to none held in my mind In this world are many, but only one I seek to find

Motionless and static, frozen state of rape My mind is trapped inside while my body can't escape The tortures of a lifetime experienced but not expressed Are known but to the self alone, until they are confessed

Tortured by my silence, unable to act We can't perform together, know I can't win you back What existed for a moment's lost in time as distant pass All moments may be fleeting but my love will ever last

What bonds are formed in eyes deep gaze? what emotions clout the mind? No partnership is found in sight but won inside the mind. Why can't I connect to others as I seek to grow the self I hide away my dear to protect my inner health

Time passes so slowly yet nothing seems to last. No memories last forever, trapped inside the past. The future's yet uncertain, the present still unfolds. Our destinies now certain, only pure love I hold.

Waiting for the message from someone who doesn't wait I would wait a lifetime, it seems that's already my fate I hold these close ideals of a love known deep and true Your loves the one I wait for, my only desires you

Opposites attract while kindred souls repel What can't be held by closely meant not that you have failed Why language cant explain what expressions can't define What do I have to say? What do you seek to find?

Alcohols forgotten dreams destroy passions as they soar Acids highest fantasy wrought illusions, yearned for more In purest state of mind I know only one that sends to flight Ephemeral bliss's silence sprites forward passion into light

I give the world this body but to you I leave my mind Don't wander this globe with me, there's no knowing what you'll find I try to hold the balance to help and find my inner strength Loves not to be conquered, but it would travel the distance

Why do I love each person as I learn to know their soul? What's held inside each one only the self can truly know What drives self seeking outward looking elsewhere just to find what's already within? found if you go into your mind

To love each being as purely as passion strikes in vain beauty Why do such emotion fog us?, What separates the sea's? Oceans endless travels seeks beauty from within Nothing is found outside until you focus deeply in

Why does heart break so violently when rejected so outright I want to win your love but for that I cannot fight Why does your memory still strike me so deeply? I will remember you my love always as pure as love can be

ego games restricts others from seeing each for as they are I don't want to own anybody, I respect that you've come far Each path we take is alone, roads traveled solitary We might cross.paths again some other day, will just have to wait and see

I fall in love caught in the eye of every women I meet Ananda won me in the mind as I heard her voice soft speak Gracing with her beauty, awestruck by her soul Such kind will draws me onward, if such beauty I could know

Oh Amsterdam can take my love, I fall in every day What's left before I cannot know the streets just cannot say Wandering solitary glances of a soul I wish to know My body may leave here someday know my heart will never go

There's no way to express how infinite love really is It truly has no limits, no beginning, no end, not his For the moments ever passing, each emotions drifting by In this lifetime I might never know, but until I die, I'll try

I'm broken, abused, molested, shattered ego seals my fate I can't forget all attachments that pull down with such weight Only learning to love equally by true detachment from desire I might appear calm outwardly but inside burns passions fire

In Anandas ecstasy, though momentarily, All walls dissolve, I vanish, till only truth is seen Why do these wall divide each alone not cognisant how we connect Nothing separates us, so there's nothing to expect

Moments of the graces of an elegant city Eyes graces moments loves all's thats known to me What cannot be softly spoken drifting down canals in breeze The oceans waves flow upstream as I float outward to sea

Amsterdam my love was lost so many years ago What was found was forgotten long after I had to go What evokes these long lost feeling I once knew layed down deep inside I may lay down some day but promise I won't go and hide

Drifting slowly wafting beauty flows through my every vein This world appears ever fleeting, does anything ever remain? Wandering this planet alone but not traveled lone This worlds lived to densely to not know each place as my home

Intense introspection on the blue moons full moon glow What wrecks my quiescence, urge movement for travel's go Still and waiting peaceful, not satiated yet Time cures all wounds opened my mind never forgets

Drifting slowly wafting beauty flows through my every vein This world appears ever fleeting, does anything ever remain? Wandering this planet alone but not traveled lone This worlds lived to densely to not know each place as my home

To know a love so gentle, so pure and so trusting I give all I have to offer if you only let me in I don't want to control, to own, or change you in anyway Why can't a love be held?, only destroying what it may?

In the essense of the presense of the love I'll never hold What I don't know with my body, the mind only pretends to know To experience others is fully to know who they truly are Distance's traveled short but my mind wanders very far

Your beauty graces my presence as I experience your soul My lifetime would be empty if you did not fill that hole I don't request your mind or body or to steal your health I can't expect to find in others what I can't find in my self

In the essense of the presense of the love I'll never hold What I don't know with my body, the mind only pretends to know To experience others is fully to know who they truly are Distance's traveled short but my mind wanders very far

Seized in syncopathic spins sent spiraling down to floor Dabbing chillums potent smog swept from feet from wanting more Painful realization of moments missed in will I'll find next time a sitting ground to prevent another spill

Why do I feel I need you as much as the air I breath Such intensity will scare you off and give me the space I need Its not coincidence I'm lonely as love I never tried to find All heavens, all hells, and the whole earth just appears in my mind.

Idle time spent waiting for loves escape that never come. Nothing can just arrive to you, but to her feet you must run. Submissive and accepting of the things I cannot change. Can I convey my deepest love to you in a way that can be explained?

So gentle and so giving, I cannot take away To try to take any thing from you is not alright in any way I don't want to change you, but I know you never can I'm not worthy of your love if I cannot be a man

Seeking gentle solace, not desiring only touch I wish that I could tell you what keeps me from standing up My demi-sexuality is a mystery to most Its not easy to explain and its nothing that I boast I cannot love you physically until I've won your mind My body might be willing but not without taking time It takes me time to unwind, but time's so very rare Only one women ever let me open, but that time it was just not there

Why do I torture myself?, Nor approach her when I'm asked? Though I knew she was awake, I couldn't knock when I walked passed. Unable to choose action , passively just standing by. I can't be rejected if I don't ask, it might be why I never try.

Soaring ever upward while bracing for my fall. Beauty strikes not often, but only seldom, if at all. Why, do most people wonder, why they wander in their mind? I wander in my body, while wonder what the self will find.